Running and better.

I had a dream that I was running. Just running. Not away from someone or something. Not towards anyone, anything, or anywhere. Just running. It was like my usual afternoon run. I got nothing on my mind but the thought that I gotta run, just because I want to. The road I was taking was very unfamiliar though. I haven't been there before. On my left was a fastfood joint. The road looks like a skyway, but it didn't ghave any railings. I was running in full speed so I was a little afraid that I might fall down. As I look at what's below the skyway, I saw a Chinese temple. It was very vivid. The intricate dragon carvings on its roof. The pointed, towering roof. I moved away from the edge of the road, afraid I might fall into the temple. I moved to the other side of the road 'cos the sight of the temple distracts me and gives me a feeling that I'm really gonna fall down. A few more seconds and I was okay. I got back my pace and kept running.

Running, running, and running.

No panting, sweating. No getting tired. Just running. I had this feeling that I haven't felt before. I have no words to describe it, but it's like that feeling when you finally remembered something that you have been trying to remember for days. It's like that feeling when you're finally able to buy something that you've been saving up for for months. It's like that feeling of getting off of a plane in another country. It's like that feeling of a first kiss. It's like that feeling that I got when I finally graduated from college. It's like those feelings, but better. It was way way better.

I woke up from this dream feeling ecstatic. I woke up feeling that finally I know what to do with my life. I woke up feeling that I can do anything, accomplish everything.I haven't felt this way for a long time. For the first time, in a long time, I felt free. Free from all the worries that I have. Free from all the guilt, the sadness, the heartbreak. Free from all the insecurities, the doubts, the self-pity. Free from all the bad vibes.

For the first time, in a long time, I feel okay. I feel good. I feel better. I am better.