Empty now.

She knows she isn't pretty. She doesn't have the perfect nose, the perfect smile. Her hair flies away to wherever it pleases. She has an oily forehead. Her lips are chappy and she doesn't know how to put on make up. But whatever she lacks in physical appearance, she tries to compensate with confidence.

You're not pretty, but you're cool, she always tells herself. Just be funny and throw witty punchlines, she always keeps in mind. She tries so much not to be insecure. She tries so much to not care with how she looks. She tries so much not to drown herself in self pity and self doubt. For 21 years she succeeded in doing so. But everyone's game changes. And today, hers did.

All those years of building her high self esteem. All those years of self pep talks. All those years of believing with what she has. All those years now gone down the drain. All because she let her guards down. All because she let people in her life. All because she trusted too much. All because she loved too much.

Now her ghosts come alive. She waves her white flag and let them swallow her. She just let them drag her down. She couldn't fight them this time. She couldn't hold on anymore. She's empty now. She's empty now.