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Sleepless. Continuously sighing.

Sleepless again. I don't know. I just have a lot of things goin on right now. I was in a bad mood, and then I was happy, and then bad vibes again and then blaaa~what, I don't really know. Maybe this is boredom. I get crazy when I don't do something outside my routine. And today, I was stuck with just the computer, tv, dining table, bed, computer, tv, dining table, bed, oh and fridge. Definitely not the summer I have imagined. Hmm.

And now, I change my mood too quickly which is annoying cos I get really confused about my tweets and Facebook stats. Like I don't understand myself anymore. Like I don't know what to feel first. Like everything is spontaneous and I can't catch up. Like I've gone insane already. Total chaos, up here (points to head). INTENSE. Ha ha. (look at that I'm even laughing at myself like this is nothing serious, is this serious?) And then I feel like blogging with all my thoughts disorganized like nobody's gonna read this. Yeah probably nobody's gonna read this. *Exhales deeply*

Actually I was happy today. 1)First time I woke up not drenched in sweat! 2)And then I got published, right! Right! 3)And I was kinikilig (actually since yesterday) cos I was stalking my newest crush. 4)I had a relaxing nap. 5)And I am feeling better, allergic rhinitis is finally going away.

Also, I got BV. 1)Celtics lost game 5, it was disappointing. I felt the need to be in the game and shout at Pierce "Hey you score some 3 pointers alright!". I SO WANT THEM TO BE IN THE FINALS. And beat Lakers. 2)THAT guy is bothering me again. Ew. He's trying to make friends AGAIN. Sabi na ayoko na e pero ipilit pa niya sarili nya nakakainis. 3)I suddenly felt unappreciated. And unloved. (maybe I just needed attention. I can be papansin at times)

And there. Nothing serious, I guess. I can just sleep, dream away and forget all these troubles in no time. But since I am stupid what I do is torture myself with all these thoughts until I cry, sleep, and get nightmares. Worse, wet my bed. KIDDING, JUST KIDDING.

I'm a frekkin' writer!

Can I just say that I feel so awesome and legendary right now? Whew. I just got published! Oh well, I knew that this article is gonna be published because the editor of diliman diary asked me to give him the right to post it in the site but I JUST FELT ECSTATIC when I saw it posted on the diliman diary website. I really am a writer now. I can't believe it. I've been writing for like 15 years now but I've never been proud of my outputs. Hmm. Maybe that's one reason why I don't blog. Haha. I don't like people reading my work cos I'm afraid they might not like it and I hate being rejected just like that. Hahaha.

Actually I just don't know what to say. I'm soooooo sooooo happy. Good vibes are already coming in.

I don't really blog

I write. I keep journals. But I don't really blog. I don't even know why I made this one. Actually, I've made lots and lots of blogs already. I just do not know how to uhh manage? Alright whatever. I tried to maintain my wordpress but after two posts I just got bored. Hmm. Microblogs work for me, though. I think I'm so much better with one-liner posts than this kinda stuff. Hmm. So why am I even posting this? Well, I wanna try. This is prolly the last try.