I can't put my emotions into words right now. All I wanna do is pack my bags and leave this house. And never ever ever come back. I just realized, it isn't true that home is where the heart is. It isn't always true that whatever happens your family is always there. There are things that do not happen to everybody. Right now, I just wish that the rapture was true. So I'd die a natural death and not be forced to commit suicide. Or I was born in a different family. I'm serious. I'm not saying this just because I'm mad. I'm dead serious.